Surviving Life Part 2
Yesterday I wrote about the conditions and experiences that I had in the first 20 years of my life. That was the dyslexia, autism, and the abuse I suffered. It has not been easy for me.
In 2007 I was diagnosed with depression. I do not want to go into the details around it but let's just say that it was as a result of work. I was in a bad way. I took a penknife to my hand. That is how low that I got. Depression has been an ongoing battle since then however, I am now more in control of it.
With depression I want to say, you can master it. You may never be completely free of it; however, you can conquer it. I am able to spot triggers within my own body and try and take corrective steps to avoid a full-blown depressive episode. I am not able to always beat it, but it is something that I would be able to have a fighting chance.
June 2017 the Grenfell Tower Fire happened. I spent some time helping out at the pop-up centers. There were kids on the estate I lived on so I talked to them regularly about things and helped support them. I kept how the fire hit me. It all exploded in 2019 when it exploded. I had to attend therapy for a year and came out of it with PTSD.
PTSD is hard to deal with and the therapy is really intensive. It is the same as depression though, you can conquer it. You learn how to cope with it and then the triggers become less and less in control of you. You can do it.
2015 I started having spinal problems. This really started at the age of 29. Suddenly going from someone who can walk to the shop without any problems to someone who can only walk short distances at one go is ridiculous. This has been really hard for me to get over. Mentally it has been soo difficult to get my mind around it and have many occasions where I felt disgusted with myself.
Physical disability does not have to limit you though. You find what works well with you and what does not, and you will be able to live a full life. You can have a life just because you are disabled does not change this. Reach for the sky ladies and gentlemen.
Wanted to try and make sure this post was more positive then yesterday.
As you can see, I have not had a great life. Between yesterday's post and today's post I have been through a lot. I am very proud to say that I am a survivor. If you go through difficulties and come out the other side, you are a survivor. Honestly download the song Survivor from Destiny’s Child and it will help you keep going.
Stay safe and keep well out there.