I bet they did not know....
So this is me writing about something random.
As someone who was born in the wrong decade and got missed as a child for the autism diagnosis, I watched a lot of television. It informed me of how to behave in the real world... Sometimes I got it right, other times I got it incredibly wrong.
But I have always wondered if the writers of these shows knew how much their shows help in today's world. Some times in the most bizarre ways.
I have been undergoing CBT therapy for PTSD and we are at the stage where we update the memory. You bring things in that you know now, to bring down the emotional element of the memory. You can use anything that will help you the trick is that it has to mean something to you. For me, I used two things that I knew from TV that meant something to me.
For those of you who are Supernatural fans, you will know the symbol I mean. Dean and Sam have it tattoed on them. Always nice to see the symbol.
The symbol is to stop demons and angels from possessing them.
For me, I use it in PTSD therapy as a shield or an anti-possession symbol for the negative thoughts. I drew it onto a shield and when I am getting upset or I am worried the negative thoughts will take hold of me then I reach out and touch the drawing or imagine it in my mind. It has really been helpful.
Xena Warrior Princess
For those in the 90s Xena was basically a staple of television. Before sky when you only had 5 channels Xena was on tv.
I fell in love with the show. I always wished I was as strong as Xena. She was so powerful and strong and could kick ASS!
So it is no surprise that for the worst part of the memory that I was updating last week, I brought Xena into it. She held my hand and gave me her strength to say, "I am at my limit" and the strength to know it is not a weakness to know your limit and move on.
Obviously, Lucy Lawless was not there dressed as Xena when my painful memory happened. It is a way of telling my brain, even though at the time I felt weak, I was actually being strong. This helps to bring the emotion down so that I can get my brain to process the memory.
I wonder how the writers would feel knowing that what they imagined and created helped an autistic person in her adult life in PTSD therapy. Would they feel proud that what they created really has transcended the screen and come into reality?
I wish I could tell these people what their work meant to me, but I will have to settle for the blog.