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My Dreams

I was asked today about dreams and what dreams I have. Funnily enough, the person who asked me this question also added “I’m sure being disabled you don’t have any”. So, to prove them wrong, here are my dreams. Dream 1: get a fully paid for college experience in an American University. I always wanted to study Criminal Psychology and have a degree in it. I have been in love with the USA since I was a small child and it was something I always wanted but being undiagnosed autistic and undiagnosed dyslexic, I never had a chance in school. I also came from a poor family so would never be able to afford it. I would want the full experience, albeit living off of campus due to my disabilities. I do not think I would be able to share a dorm, especially with the meds that I take for them. I know at 34 that is never going to happen but if I had a rich sponsor who gave me life changing money and a university agreed to take me on, I would be in HEAVEN! I would even register to do

What Autism is like for me

People who do not understand autism really frustrate me. They don't understand autism, yet when you try to explain it to them, they dont want to listen either. It is really important to say that autism affects people differently. The likelihood of finding two people who are affected the exact same way is negligable. So I am going to tell you how it affects me. I am going to tell you how it affects both externally and internally. SOCIALLY (People I know): When I meet with people I know, I am usually ok enough. I feel comfortable with them and I can talk to them. They know me and they know who I am as a person. They know that if I say something the wrong way that may be taken offensively then it is not on purpose and are more than happy to help me self correct. SOCIALLY (New People): In work I do force myself to go out of my comfort zone as, I want to be happy in my career a

Disability is not an excuse

Being classed as disabled does not give you a pass on being an asswhole! Being disabled does not give you a reason to be a mooch. I am very qualified to say this because I am disabled. I have Autism, Asthma, Spinal Problems, Dyslexia, Depression and PTSD. Yet, despite the fact I deal with these issues I still work. For those in the disabled community who can work with adjustments, but decide not to, then you are perpetuating the image that disabled people can't work. You are perpetuating the idea that we should never be able to work or be part of mainstream society. Do not get me wrong, there are people in the disability community who legitimatly can't work and these people should be protected. For those who can work and choose not to then you are making things worse for those of us who do work. I want to see more people embracing their disabilitys, whilst also showing people that we can still work as we

Thank You For Your Service

Thank you for your service is something I live by. There are men and women who sacrifice their lives for our freedom. When I see people, who do not appreciate the sacrifices they make I get really upset. I wanted to share this with you. I watched a Dhar Mann video, Son Refuses to Honour Military Dad. , and it really affected me. I think because of the autism I get emotional quickly but this video just had me in tears. My first job was running shops and bars for the Armed Forces. This is a great job if you move around or the regiments that are there move around. I was on one barracks for 2+ years. I stayed put and so did the regiment as well. This is great for making friends but not so good when people are killed in action. In 2007, 6 people I knew from the barracks was killed in action within months of each other. I was devastated. This really brought home what people give up when they sacrifice their lives. I knew the girlfriends, wiv

Body Image

Today I want to talk about Body Image. This is something I have battled with my entire life. When I watched a Dhar Mann video with a message of “you can’t heal if you don’t reveal” I decided to share my body image story. I have never really felt like I had a good body image of myself. When I was a teenager, I was only a size 12 and weighed 12 stone. To understand how much I weighed 12 stone is equal to 76Kg or 168lbs. I saw people wearing size 10 and having completely flat stomachs and I hated it. I wanted to be like them, but I could never get that way. Then throw in the fact I stopped growing at 5ft3 (160cm) I was disgusted with the way I looked. Later in life, when I was diagnosed with depression, I started gaining weight. The more disabled I became the bigger I got. Medications kept affecting my appetite and honestly, I found that I hated the way I look. My breasts are too big, and my stomach is almost double the size of when I was a teenager.

What are we doing to our world

The world has become a crazy place. Where people can be demonised for actually wanting to get vaccinated, and those doing the demonising using Donald Trump as an argument. I mean honestly, using a man who threw a tantrum, incited a riot on the capitol, and tried to back peddle on it. Honestly, I would never use Donald Trump to win ANY argument! I have even had people telling me what terminology I am allowed to use to describe myself. I use two terms, one term being “disabled person” and then using “differently abled” person. Someone took offence to the term “differently abled” and tried to tell me what I could and could not say. Did I miss a flight to communist China or North Korea? COVID-19 has created a very strange world, I am not sure I like what it is turning in to. I do what I can to spread love and joy in this world but it seems like it is a losing battle! Here are some things that you can do to help spread joy in the world tha

Friday Shout Out - Millicent Simmonds

Friday Shout Outs are going to be a new thing on my blog. Every week I will find one thing to give a shout out to, whether it is someone in my personal life, who will be anonymised for their privacy, a celebrity, or something that catches my eye. From this shut ins perspective, its my way to spread some positivity into the world. So, without any further delay, this weeks Friday Shout Out is for Millicent Simmonds. If you do not know who Millicent Simmonds is, she is the actress who has a starring role in A Quiet Place and the sequel which was released this year. So why is a celebrity getting a shout out. Well honestly, Millicent ROCKS. She plays a deaf character in the movie and is actually deaf. They did not train a hearing person to play a deaf character they actually went with a deaf actress. One, who for interviews has an interpreter to help her. The fact that she is deaf is not what makes her get a shout out, no, it is the fact